Manipulate the flames of hope

Friday, October 31, 2008

everyone acted like nothing happened...

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10/31/2008 10:01:00 AM

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Lol I was...am bored at home so I just did this for fun and guess what? i'm quite satisfied over this one XD lol

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10/30/2008 02:45:00 AM

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

LOL recently I've been tagged from other people's bog lately XD. So I'm gonna do this tag thing again. lol XD Just read my blog and you'll know. too lazy to go to your blogs and tagging u there. So the last person that tagged me was...oh Howe.

1. What is the relationship of you and her/him?
One guy among the many good friends I made in college...so far XD

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
Witty
Psychotic (his nickname is † P§¥KØ †™. what else do you expect? a decent normal guy? xp)
Very knowlegable in many things
Very open minded in many things. the kind of people I enjoy hanging around with
Goes brain dead when a pretty girl passes by *uhh~ uhhhh~ I don't know my name~*

3. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
Brought me out on late suppers to enjoy the nightlife XD

4. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
...MORON!

5. If she/he become your lover, you will..
I'd rather die...okay well be single for life then be with him = =""

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will...
find any excuse to blame any random passer-by

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on...
breaking up with guys...= = simple~

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is...
He get drawn to a magnet more easily than me xp

9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
Flatten or destroy that gravity-defying hair

10. The overall impression of her/him is..
psychotic...need I explain more?

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
Go ahead and ask them~ lol

12. The character of you for yourself is?
A damned fool who is more than he may seem on 1st impressions. (oh~ nice one XD)

13. What do you hate about yourself?
...I can't comfess to a girl I liked for years...and not being a social butterfly

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is?
Myself and no one else in the world

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something to them
Hey thanks for the love and I love you too! XD

Ten people to tag:
1. Amelia Su sorry can't tag you for now =/
2. Amelia Ho (poking hands of doom!
3. Wai Kwan
4. Howe
5. Leonard
6. Mark
7. Ryan
8. Zhi Ling
9. Ka Long
10. Kar Leong
= = gott find new blogs to tag

Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
Single at the moment...I have no comment here XD

No.3 a male or a female?
Unless she's not hiding any dark truth about her gender, I'd say she's a girl XD

If no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing?
very VERY bad thing...

How about no.5 and 8?
HO~ 5's taken already. 3'll be mad~ and gonna kill me when she reads my blog = =

What is no.1 studying about?
How to creatively advertise stuff I think~

Is no.4 single?
yea for the last...how many years again? and since he so generously mentioned my name in his blog, he better be in a better relationship by the end of this year! Cindy-AH~
there, I've don a bit of a favour to Miki and him >D

Say something about no.6.
Gets easily disturbed by 3 and 5's naughty time sounds

yes yet another blog post postedand another bunch of stuff told XD So i'm off to bed and before I officially post this up, here's a bunch of stuff that happened yesterday.

I'm betting even after death, he would still suffer in pain

>< Damn you,Howe! you're supposed to emo on your own hand, not my neck~!

carpark shot of the Essenism clan

Well the man in dark button shirt was Eston Tan. An ex-lecturer of TOA. He told us that he used to teach foundation students in TOA in 1995 if i'm not mistaken...then after he left, we found out the reason why they were taking shots with the portrait behind them. Eston Tan WAS the guy that painted the portrait! We were talking to the artist! lol XD TOA spreads everywhere...and at unexpected places >< lol~

So proud of our college...lol nah just a group photo of us in Starhill gallery. but I was kinda happy about the portrait painted by an ex-lecturer from TOA itself. XD

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10/28/2008 09:36:00 AM

Monday, October 27, 2008

Holiday mood destroyed

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10/27/2008 04:47:00 AM

Friday, October 24, 2008

Just realised. the way i smile in pics are somewhat different from before o.O

Anyways, since Amelia has some random facts about her...why not make mine? cause since she mentioned my name in there, might as well reply with my new post XD. Besides, I've always wanted to have friends know more about me XD. but can't put some details here. U'll be blur. Definitely XD. gotta explain to u haha~ so lets start...think I'll do it another time...

My holiday mood's destroyed over a few hours of talk...having suicidal thoughts @.@ but made a promise i won't be added on someone's list of dead friends

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10/24/2008 09:40:00 AM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I used to think that my gift was only for myself and myself only.

That I don't need to use it for someone else's benefit, nor should they know about it.

After this, I found out that because of that, I've put a lot of negativity on it, making it hurt myself when I thought it was supposed to benefit me. I didn't care because I thought I didn't really mean anything to anyone besides my family.

Later on, like the saying goes, "turn on a new leaf". I thought of changing for the better when I thought I finally had some similarities in life some people I've met in life but they always seem to prove me wrong in every way and not to say I'm right but they always judge me from where I come from or to be more specific, who they thought I was. A nobody who is never good for anything.

So when I finally woke up from my long nightmare. I thought I was going to walk into another one soon as i only had a few months to spare. So I kept to this ridiculous oath I made o myself when I was still in the nightmare. here's the oath:

Never to trust anyone anymore.
Even if they seem the trustful type, I will always keep a very big distance from them and fake it all up like what I've learned from those "great examples" back in those 5 years I've spent back then in that social prison. Why? It's because I have that life example who decieved me with those simple but strong words everyone would look for. You are my close friend I can relate to...those were the words I always wanted to hear from someone.

So when I walk in this new road, I find many people who were very different from the ones I've met so far. They like the total opposites of the ones I've met from before. So I befriended them and kept my distance from them. From time to time I would realise that I was opening too much to them, being vulnerable again, and when that time come when I would realise I would just keep my silence and lety them be as I thought they were just the sight I would long for and never get it.

Soon things happened, and I start to open my eyes and start to differentiate the drastic difference I see between the people I'm around with and the ones I walked past by everyday 5 years ago. They seem to really judge you for who you are, not what you are and from where you come from. They weren't arrogant. they weren't egoistic or materialistic or at least the "popular" wannabes bak in those days.

So then after that, I slowly break that insignificant oath I made a long time ago. So here I am now, truly enjoying my life everywhere I go, everytime we all meet up. But one bemefit I got from that nightmare was that I've learned that not everybody's the same wherever you go. And now I've learned that being who you really are really pays off in a long run cause from being who you really are, that'swhen you not lose your friends but learn who the real ones are.

So to the obvious ones that stood up for me and still accepted me, even a thank you can't describe how greatful I am to you.

oh And for the ones I've "lost", enjoy living in that miserable illusion you call "reality"...Thank god you left me behind..

wow that was long~ 8D *runs off to breakfast*

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10/22/2008 03:41:00 PM

Monday, October 20, 2008

Fun Saturday night at Henry's place. KK, Licia, Howe, and I satyed overnight at Henry's place as he had a housewarming thing there. first off, we all had a small tour of the whole house. Man, the house is more like some 5 start hotel u would find anywhere in Malaysia. Even master bed room's toilet is bigger than my room! well at least the same size...= =" if it's just the toilet then imagine the whole house then...3 story house! Then comes the BBQ part...oh even for a big...huge eater like Howe, we had a limit to eating...the food was just too good T T...It was like a big feast for just the 5 of us. The food there beats the restaurants around college anytime XD. So then later on we thought of playing cards but endded up at the ps2 instead...ps2 was kinda spoiled so we rested for a few minutes, had a pillow fight (KK got hit in his ding dong!) and then we played "I have never".

Okay here's the rules. U say something like "I have never done or have had anything before in my life." So for instance, u say u have never kissed a guy who's not related to u before. Whoever that had kissed a guy in who's not related, has to drink. If no one in the group drinks, u have to drink instead. For me, it was 100 plus since i can't drink >XD. See, the point of the game is to actually get to know the group better in a sense, not just make anyone drink, it's a fun game to play with in a group...with the booze of course but i'll stick to non-alchoholic stuff since i can't drink...or~ unless someone makes non-alchoholic beer XD.

So then, game start! It started off okay, then KK had to drink almost every round XD. He had revenge by saying stuff like "my b'day's on Merdeka day" and "I know Lih Ting's full name"...get better stuff to say! XD So then likewise, Iwasn't all that great either. Had to say some stuff that had nothing of interest to anyone = =" lol~ So then We had fun, chatted a bit then slept.

Next morning...i mean afternoon, Howe was taking 2/3 of the bed while i only had the corner of the bed...i'll stick to two beds next time D<. Then had a not-so-nice convo then pillow fight agin!! so we had fun piling up on each other and KK just had to fall on me = =" hmph! XD lol~ So after the 2nd pillow fight, we chatted a lil and Howe just said stuff bout marrying and having kids with Ducky...poor *censored* must be emo-ing at one dark corner now >D.

Flatten the gravity-defying-hair!

Howe and his ducky~ quack quack!

Never a good sight for anyone XD

...no comment

the pile up...Henry looks wrong~

i'm giving u the finger!

Henry looks dead XD

last few pics before we all played "I have never"

the morning group shot before having lunch...lol XD

Exploration week's coming up~ be prepared~ >XD

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10/20/2008 07:17:00 AM

Friday, October 17, 2008

This week has been a fun week~ lol. Monday, After we had our B.M class, we had a lil tutorial on figures from the one and only, Yen...tada~. lol~ So, he was teaching us on how to put in the 3D-ness in figures using the shading method. Well I expected nothing less from him as he acually drawn the whole proportions of the figure in just a few minutes...lets say around 3? When just to get the DAMN proportions right, I would take at least 30 min to get it right...and by then he actually finished the basic shading with a lil detail on the figures in just 15 min...T T he's just that good. well here are the pics:

all done in just a few minutes...A FEW MINUTES!

LOL! the final outcome of the figure...hmm why cupid?

the cupid above my head~

Then onto the next day~ We were all high on something...somehow for no perticular reason. So then we had lunch at the fake and typically, boring Ming Tien, chatting, laughed my head off, and till my stomach hurt. LOL! then we headed to the library and somehow, the topic between Wai Kwan, Kok Jing, and me was all about Essence...We were laughing too hard on this one so here's what we came up with:

Essenism! a group that of insanity~

Leonard: The father of all Essence
Wai Kwan: The processor of Essence
Miki: The amplifier of essence and spreader of Essenism XD
Howe: The model of Essenism
me: The Promoter of Essenism
Kok Jing: Assistant promoter

styling the model in his half-asleep state XD

Then nothing major happened in the few days after that. Had a good chat with my firends at the bball court, Howe actually ate his Roti Canai with chop sticks lol~. So forward to today~! Had a trip to Sungei Wang today. Fun trip~ finally got what we all wanted! So long! and now I crave for something else....nevermind, i shall wait for a better design...or make one myself if i have the materials and effort n time XD. lol~. One day...we'll go there again...exploration week? Here are the pics of today's trip in Sungei Wang

who wants to drink clothes? XD

Our doodle on the wall in Sungei Wang

Since someone had a Miki from Taylors, why not promote our own Miki from TOA? lol XD

Khai Koon! our Figures 1 lecturer! in a gaming shop! wow XD

Howe showing off his new chain...Now I'm tempted to but one myself~ T T nevermind! I shall make one myself when i have the time!

and a final group photo before we left Sungei Wang~
Really, I rarely get these kinda days back in school...COLLEGE LIFE ROCKS!

Labels: chains, fun trip

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10/17/2008 08:19:00 AM

Monday, October 13, 2008

lol finally the previous post is totally useless now...and I'm finally back to normal. Will be posting more after my tsunami of assignments 8D

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10/13/2008 06:18:00 PM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

I was a bloody anti-social througout secondary school life. Sedaya Brought me down...a HELL lot.
I finally found great friends who I can actually trust and count on when facing problems. They're just better than almost all the people I've met in Sedaya. They're great people...

And when I've finally found these people, I start to change a little, but I'm still the same kid from standard 6 deep down. So why? Why are you not trusting me all of a sudden?
It's not like I'll lose my way. It's not like I'll start smoking or drinking or get addicted to drugs.
So why the sudden mistrust? I just prefer the night life and meeting new people. That's all.

I don't want to stand alone in a crowd again...
I don't want to miss out on the great times again.
I don't want to be alone anymore...

So why is that you don't trust me now when i'm a better person and not complaint at all when I

was a bloody negative anti-social?

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10/11/2008 09:07:00 AM

Thursday, October 9, 2008

well it's been ages since i last updated my blog...now i'm having fun. lol anyways updates~

The usual, college and stuff but some interesting things have been happening to me lately~. first off, i'm gonna get treated by Chong Sern, my Language and communication skills lecturer! Whoo! high time! so then comes my drawing skills! well, i've never really drawn actual figures of anything cause i'm just damn right horrible at it, but during history class, Howe was just doing crazy origami which he is damn good at it, while Miki was watching stuff on the laptop, someother people doing stuff (can't remember) and i was just drawing stuff and i actually drew the best grim reaper I ever drew in...all my life! i was shocked myself! whoa! here are the pics:

My first ever nice looking figure sketching @.@

Howe's crazy origami skills (haven't shown u guys his other ones yet = =")

The 2 headed bird thing XD and my wierd mask frm my dreams XD lol

Then a few days ago, wierd things happened in Pyramid. twice now.Note this: you guys should already know of what I'm capable of in my life before reading this cause if not, u'll just be blur XD. I was walking with the regular group of peple to McD for lunch and when i was walking towards Parkson and somehow, the atmosphere of the whole place was just creepy in every way. Sometimes I get this but the one I felt that time was different. So I just thought: who cares! which was a bloody bad idea later on T T. So on going, things really start to happen while i was gonna order at McD. Vision was blurry, heard things which i somehow can't describe and my energy was just going crazy. So Howe was jokingly asking me if I could treat him that day but I had the wierd look on my face so he asked if I was alright. Said i was and ended up treating him anyways... huh? lol XD told him what happened afterwards = =" lol he said i looked like I was halfway dying. Can't blame me XD haha! lol~ the downside of having this 'gift' =p...really, it can mess with your social life

well anyways...TAG!!!

TAG!
1. Post these rules before you give your facts.
2. List 8 random facts about yourself.
3. At the end of your post, choose 8 people to tag and list their names, linking to them.
4. Leave a comment on their blog, letting them know they're tagged.

Random facts about me... hmmm...
1.well i'm currently college-ing at The one Academy that's for sure~
2. I have great college groups that's like a living, walking, talking loud speaker box wherever we go XD trust me on this one one time, Carl's Jr. was dead quiet until we came in.
3. I firedance a lot!...until i became addicted to fire!
4. And i rock climb too XD fun and good for character building...and fun =p
5. Have a whole new feel to the world now XD
6. have potential weapons at most corners of my room...oh i left one under my laptop...>D
7. Craves for ice-cream now...
8. and finally have better people in my life now...including theones i made earlier XD...i can count more than 10 now!!

Who to tag...how to tag?
1. Amelia!...my partner in crime too <3 heartie matey!...randomness...i'm full of it
2. Wai Kwan...poking monster! yeaaa! run away! *eats putu piring*
3. Leonard...OH~ u touch my tralala!
4. Howe...gravity defying hair and always screws up the 1st few times when he tries to get me >D n i got him on the first try most of the time...bzzt! electrifying!
5. Mark...disturbed by hanky panky stuff behind him XD
6. Zhi Ling...hmm superb artist even though she doesn't admid it
7. Karen...a good friend i've never seen for a long time XD
8. Ryan...the Iron man~ which was hit by a missile and is under mantainance XD

Labels: 3rd eye, nice grim

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10/09/2008 05:56:00 AM

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Can you read the message below?
opening this new sight i see,

slowly seeing the other side,

playing with this new gift and curse all together

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10/05/2008 05:02:00 AM

Friday, October 3, 2008

been meaning to update for awhile...again at 5am = =...well just finished my figures here. So might as well just blog a lil bit. Might repost this post another day.

So well today was the day I actually went out on a date with Amelia! whee~ lol we met up at McD and had lunch since i didn't really eat in the morning. I treated but she only drank so it wasn;t much. So while eating, we were chatting about lots of stuff. From her cosplay friends to how fun and literally loud the students of TOA can be when in a restaurant XD. YesI just had to tell her, it hard not to blurt out what actually happened the last time I was at McD with my college friends. So then after I finished my lunch, we darted straight for the arcade. haha~ funny one.

So there she actually used up rm10, while i only used rm3...now i really can't wait for my pay from college..So we played DDR, time crisis 4, and...DDR again XD. thing is, she actually finished all her tokens when she played time crisis 4. so since i had the last token might as well just use it at the ddr machine. lucky thing tho, there was another token inserted in the DDR machine when we were there XD. haha! XD So after that, we headed to A&W for a drink. We chatted a lot more there and updated on what happened to each other these past few months. Then I found out about her ex there and got to know what actually happened...lol. anyways, the nwe were discussing on wheather we were actually on a date or just a friendly outing XD. we both voted friendly outing cause we just knew too much about each other and pretty much hanging out instead of dating. XD i still call this a date btw =p...forgot to take pictures..who cares? XD So then she had to head back home n I had to meet up with Howe and my sis to head back home.

Then after nothing much happened XD just chatted with Howe about the "date" i had and his unlucky experience again. poor fella. lol More details coming soon~ haha...i mean the whole story on the past few days..=p not him.

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10/03/2008 02:45:00 PM